Today it snowed.
They didn't plow or salt and the drifts actually drifted.
This weekend I went cross-country skiing.
I'm been doing that thing where you can take a step back from your life (just in the mind) and I'm living a dream for real. Who really gets to do this stuff? Who gets to work a job they actually like? I chose to go to work today three and a half hours early today. Who gets to travel every weekend at least as far as another time zone? Who gets to play as much as I do? Tonight we put on the snow pants and did somersaults off the road into the ditch. Who has a master's degree at such a young age?
My life is not anything I would have picked on my own volition, it's so much better.
Why did God give me these parents? Why did he chose for me to be born in Lubbock? Why did God put me in a situation where I could (almost) afford higher education? All these things we either take for granted or never consider the alternative. Part of me wants to reject the privilege I've been born into but that would be like rejecting God's sovereignty. Why, why, why?
Enough wondering for one night. It's late. Past my bedtime.
Oh, update on health. No signs of malnutrition in four days. I'm eating fatty sugary things for a little while and taking a vitamin. A little science and a lot of prayer seems to be taking care of the physical issues while I still wrestle through the spiritual issues that were brought to surface in this experience.